Overwhelming Sudden Rush of Emotion

Lately, I've been feeling angry, sad, disappointed, upset. Just imagine all the negative sh*t that you can feel. it just that... I can't let all this emotion out. you must be wondering why am I not letting this emotions go? Pretty much the answer is to keep myself from feeling much worse than this. And …

My first Ever Music Mix!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4gK75dyQcpY https://soundcloud.com/gamer-x-1st/suicidal-luv Listen to my Mix - Suicidal Luv Beats from Mack H.D. Visuals made using https://musicvid.org and by creators: caseif - Particles & Trap Nation Visualizerhttps://caseif.net/ Incept - Particles & Trap Nation Visualizerhttps://incept.online/ Cover Art Logo from https://www.dreamstime.com/ This music isn't available on iTunes and Spotify at the Moment It's also Copyright Free! means …

Confusions, Doubts and Feeling Down

So, First I wanna talk about my *NEW* PC, My PC isn't that powerful. My Mama got me a HP Compact 6000. It's a Low-End PC. Well, you guys might be asking "why is your Title say "Confusions, Doubts and Feeling Down"?". it's because I feel really down lately. Look! I may have my own …

Failing as Me

I've Started to Notice that my Memory lane have start to rotten as I forgot a bunch if things. I've also experienced a bunch of headaches and my vision is gettin weaker, means some of the thing are getting really blurred. I also having a hard time both recognising people and objects. I've never told …

Thinking about retiring my life as GAMER-X-1ST?

I've been GAMER-X-1ST for 4 years now. And it was huge part of life, snd whatever happen I said to myself I won't let go of that life. Even though the name isn't popular and nobody else watch my video, except for me ofcourse. But this past few days, I've feel that this kind of …